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| Recently, a frd of mine said I may have mental disorder after I had shared my daily life w/ him. He advised me to go see a psychiatrist, which he is actually. well, I will consider his advice.
rite now, the feeling is like someone takes my dream away. Something should be in my hand... seems like it will not happen. Should I feel disappointed or angry? I even use the bible to hit my head to find out why it is happening to me.
I wonder if I did 1/10 offering to God, would I survive? The answer is... i dunno. I have bills to pay, and I have loan to repay. The bundle on my shoulder which I cannot deal with... so it is like I get slimmer but the weight of the load is the same. Turns out.. i am goin to collapse.
I am sure No one would understand my situation. You are not me. And sometimes I wonder why I live without hope. Why I only see darkness, when I have been living in the darkness. I call for help, but the call goes into a cave.
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| Tough time makes us suffered
Someone says it's chances in dangerous,
just like findin' a beam of light in the darkness.
Many could not make it thru,
but so could we?
This tree used to be big, which gave us shelter
It grew fruit, juicy, becoz' of our work
The owner was 'kind' and 'merciful' enough,
to give us a little share.
Now the climate changes bad
The owner wants the tree to grow bigger and more fruit to sell still.
Her selfishness and greediness turns into a massacre
Those survive, whose lives get squeezed with no merci
There is no hero to save us, but full of 'A-Hole'
No one wants to be a jackass in this time though
I see no future, and no meaning under this roof, folks.
What u see is not what u think, which is no joke.
I don't know about u
I can't flip my hood up, and get set to go, or
I will have no money & no food.
It's pathetic, my legs start to grow roots.
My dream little Echo Verso,
it's just a practical Toyota, not a million huge fancy Jaguar
Alongside with a little apartment to be call home,
they are too large to become true.
Unlike me, U got some juice!
U have a face to show
U know the art of words,
so where's the problem to chill and write
U just need a vision and a motivation,
then u will be cruising on your own pace.
Ain't that cool?
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| Money cannot buy me happiness,
But it could make my life feel better.
When my job is meaningless,
my life turns out either ridiculous
I cannot trust TVB can feed me,
nor trust AIG can 'manage' my money
who says "I can help U"?
or in return U need me to give u a push.
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| I always feel worry about the future... how I will live, how I will work, wat I will be... All the things that I cannot predict, nor control, makes me worried.
My best friend got married recently. It was great, until I think about me, myself... not looking gd..
Another best friend got promoted. Fantastic, until I look at wat I am doin.... not lookin gd neither.
More friends have their own apartments. Nice places... til' I check my savin & pay-check... can't afford a toilet
My colleagueS bought new cars. Superb!! well.. I need not to think, as it is out of my league.
I am grown man.. but still rely on my parents... w/o them.. I dun think I could have a place to stay. I can't imagine if they totally relied on me... my eyes get blurry.. it's time to say gd nite...
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